Making me sleep on my own.... (quoted from mommy's blog)

Quoted from my mommy's blog...

There are many things I want to train my kids.
I surfed the internet and read up parenting books.
The books taught us how to do it.
It sounds so simple and convincing.
But when I actually trying to do it...
It is really not easy.

I have been carrying Isabel to sleep and put her down to the cot.
She has no problem sleeping on her own after midnight feed, no carrying, no pacifier.
I'm sure she can sooth herself to sleep too during the day.
I tried leaving her on the cot when she seems sleepy.
She played for half an hour,
Make frustrated noise for another half and hour,
and started really crying for one whole hour.
Till she her voice has changed, she couldn't even control her own self,
despite me already carrying her.

Poor baby, I tried to be more patience but
the way she cried and the big big drops of tears flowing down her cheeks..
just make me feel so heartache.
I'm afraid all these crying will cause any side effects on her like
phobia in her cot, voice changed or bad dreams.....
Just so much worries....

At the end, she defeated the mommy.
She won...and I finally carry her back to sleep.

I have a mixed feeling...
relief that she finally stopped crying, finally fall asleep
down that I fail to train her to sooth herself to sleep,
sad that I have caused so much stress on her and finally still carry her back to sleep.

I even feel like a failure..how come I fail to make her sleep on her own...
I was asking for patience when see her cry;
I was asking for strength to make me more hard hearted;
I was asking for confidence for Isabel, hope that she can really do it;
I was asking for...i also don't know what..I just kept telling her..

"Isabel, it's ok. You can do it. You can sleep on your own. Just close your eyes and sleep. Mommy is here to be with you. Mommy love you (plant a kiss on her face and forehead). "

Yet, we did not manage to pass through this challenge.

I console myself,
It's ok...how long can I be carrying her to sleep..
there is no harm carrying her to sleep...
She falls asleep very fast when I carry her to sleep..
No point creating all this stress for yourself and baby.
She will soon outgrown it and be able to sleep on her own.
Just take it easy and enjoy carrying her.

Deep in my heart, I really wish she can sooth herself to sleep.
Then, maybe she can nap longer, sleep better, be more independent.

I'm feeling so demotivated now..to try implementing anything...
Maybe I just let her be...
What will you do if you were me?

Complains from mommy and kor kor....

Mommy likes to complain about me lately..what did she complain??

"Isabel, you are so dirty.."
- yes..I love putting things in my mouth. Anything that I can get hold of, I will put it into my mouth. I even lick/bite the baby cot bars and even mommy's arm.

"Isabel, you are so noisy.."
- yes, I always make noise. I complained too. I always want attention and feel so unsatisfied being alone. My mouth also itchy. So, I either protest by making noise or cry for attention la.

"This girl doesn't need to sleep one.."
- yes, I only cat nap. My usual nap only last for 45 mins.

"Isabel, what do you want?"
- Well, sometimes I also don't know what I want. I just feel so unhappy that I make noise and cry lor.

My kor kor also complained about me..what did he complain?

"Mommy, you see, Isabel pull my hair. Isabel, don't pull kor kor's hair."
- hehehe...who ask him to put his head so near me. I just pull lor.

"Mommy, you see, Isabel takes my things. Isabel, don't disturb kor kor.."
- hahaha...yes..I also want to play. I also want to touch kor kor's things.

"Mommy, Isabel make a lot of noise. I cannot sleep. Isabel quiet. Kor kor wants to sleep."
- Well, I just want attention.

Sigh...even daddy started to complain I am very noisy lately. Mommy said maybe I started teething wor, that makes me very uncomfortable. How???I also don't know how...

My first dress

Well, mommy did not buy me any dresses since I am still young. Mommy said people cannot see my dress also since I cannot walk yet and need to be carried all the time. But Grandma bought me so many clothes during her last trip here (around 10 sets I think) and among all, I can wear one of them now. The rest are still too big and need to keep till I am bigger.

So, on the day we hosted the mooncake festival gathering at home, mommy let me wear my first dress that grandma bought for me. See, I look cute, isn't it?

On that day, mommy also finally bought a dress for me from a shopping centre but not for me to wear now but when I am 9 months old. Will show that to you some other time.

Happy 6 months old = unpredictable baby

Mommy described me with one word "UNPREDICTABLE" for this month. Why? Let's see..

Stats first:
Weight: 7.17kg
Height: update later
Head Circumferences: update later

Sleeping pattern.
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- sometimes sleep well, sometimes not.
- 3 to 5 naps a day range from 15 mins to 45 mins. On good day, can last for 1 hr or 2 but only happened once or twice.
- I'll still wake up smiling even just 15mins nap.
- My awake hours is around 2 hrs. Then I'll feel tired again.
- Lately, my body clock has changed. I used to sleep around 9pm and still the same but I will wake up around 11pm and started playing till 1am. Sometimes I get overtired and will cry till 3am before falling asleep soundly. I used to be able to sleep quite well at night but not this month.
- mommy still need to carry me to sleep.
- I nap in my baby room but has shifted to daddy's room for night time since we came back from Singapore.
- Funny thing, I can sleep through or quite well during weekend or holidays but on weekday or days daddy needed to go to work the next day, I will usually cry or being more difficult at night. This causes lots of stress in mommy.
- When I sleep on the cot, my legs and hands will sometimes stick out from the bars.

Feeding pattern
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- I am drinking 5oz of milk nowadays.
- Mommy is weaning me off from breastmilk. I am taking more of formula milk now. Enfalac A+.
- At times 5oz is not enough for me. I'll cry for more milk. At times I left around 20, 40 or 60ml of milk.
- My feeding internal range from 3 to 4 hourly.
- Funny thing, if my internal is longer, usually I cannot finish my milk. If my internal is shorter, I can finish the whole bottle.
- Started drinking water now.
- Mommy intend to start me on semi-solid soon.

Others
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- I can turn over and turn back to chest up easily on both side. I can basically roll and roll on a mattress.
- When on tummy down, I can lift up my head very high and turning left and right.
- I like to throw things.
- I like to do patting using my both hands. Eg, pat my leg.
- I like to touch or feel the face the person carrying me.
- I can pinch people very hard.
- Started to explore toys - play gym and electronic toys.
- Put everything in my mouth.
- Still sucking toes.
- Laugh out loud when funny sounds are made.
- Laugh when we tried to pull things from her hands.
- Love bathing. Always tried to grab the side of the bathtub and love splashing water with legs and hands.
- Love to bite on hard things rather than the soft teether.
- Started utter "DAH" and make more sound (like talking/complaining)..last Friday.
- Started like talking after that.
- Afraid of stranger. Daddy also don't want. Only want mommy and kakak.
- Afraid of new environment.
- Dislike loud noises.
- Very sensitive to sound and surroundings.

Overall I still do not have a routine yet. Mommy is trying very hard to set me a routine but fail to. Main reason, I don't nap long enough and no fix hour of my nap. I just live on a 3 hr cycle. Feed on every 3 hr. Play around 2 hr and get tired and TRYING to sleep on the last hour. It goes round the clock like that but no fix time for feeding, sleeping and playing. Mommy really wish I can sleep on own and longer, then she can do more work. She said I am occupying most of her time now since I sleep so little.

My first overseas trip

updated on 5 months 3 weeks and 3 days old.

Yes..we went for a 5D4N Singapore and 2D1N Johor trip during the Merdeka long holiday. For more details on the holiday, you can visit my kor kor's blog.

Anyway, I don't know much but what I know is every time when I opened my eyes, I am at a different place. Mommy carried and sling me a lot and I drank my milk everywhere. There are so many new faces and new environment, so many things to see and look around. Everywhere was noisy too. I don't like it but if mommy carried me, then ok.

Mommy also tried putting me on the stroller without the car seat. Kor kor every time want to fight the stroller with me. I enjoyed watching fishes swimming around me and also the scenery in the zoo. I always get overtired when reached home and cried in yi yi Janice house.

What I hate and afraid most was when I was put in the car seat in a dark dark environment. I can't see anything and I was so tired and sleepy, at the same time, I wanted to be carried and swing. Daddy has to stop his car many times to settle me, drink milk, poo and change diaper and make me sleep...finally i slept through and when I opened my eyes next, I am back to my home sweet home...i am more relax now.

p/s: Mommy didn't really take a lot of photos as she was busy taking care of us.

Turning over and turning back

yeah...another milestone achieved...

On 13 August (@5 months old), I managed to turn over. But one of my hand always get caught under my chest and need help to take it out.


Around 18 to 25 August (@5 months and 1-2 weeks old)(can't remember the exact date), I've mastered the skill of turning over. I turned over very quickly and easily, also managed to pull both of my hands in front of me but I couldn't turn back. I have to scream for help to get the people to help me turn back when I was tired. Mommy taught me how to rest my head on one side when I feel tired.


On 3 Sept (@5 months and 3 weeks old), I finally able to turn back. Yes..it also means I can roll and roll from one side to another side of the mattress now. So, mommy cannot leave me alone on a bed without putting boundaries on it. I can roll from side to side or even diagonally. Hoorey....I have the freedom to move now...I think mommy is gonna keep the bouncing net aside since I can't sit still in it now and need to change to a bigger mattress in the hall for me to roll and roll.