Cannot escape...

@ 8 months 2 weeks and 1 day old (by mommy)

Dear Isabel,

My baby darling, mommy is so sorry that you just couldn't escape from those nasty bugs this time. You finally get infected yesterday. Mommy's worse fear is finally here. Mommy feels so sorry for you as you have just recovered from your flu recently and now you are down again.

Kakak told mommy that you were warm yesterday morning. Gave you paracetamol but your fever did not subside. Sent you to clinic immediately and you were already 38.6. Doc said your throat is red but cannot confirmed whether is virus or bacteria. Can't do much and just need to monitor you further.

Whole day your fever went up and down. You looked lethargic. You couldn't sleep well. Mommy can only observe you from far because mommy is still not recover yet. Kakak is still taking full care of you. Towards the evening, your fever went up to 38.6 again even after Ibuprofern. Daddy was worried and immediately he sent you to another pediatrician that opened at night in USJ. He said your throat is very red and he prescribed you the same antibiotic as kor kor and mommy - Augmentin. Poor girl, you have to start your antibiotic so young. Kor kor took his first course of antibiotic when he was nearing 4 years old.

Mommy feels so sorry that mommy failed to protect you from all the bad viruses/bacterias around the house. Everyone is down and only kor kor has recovered. Daddy and mommy are still not recovered..how are we going to take care of you?

You are getting smarter nowadays. You know when mommy is feeding you medicine and you clamped your mouth tight and refuse to take the medicine. While you were taking your flu medicine, mommy can still cheat you by distracting your attention but not this time round. You know when the medicine is coming and you just kept shaking your head, together with your hands and legs, trying to push/kick the medicine away and buried your head in kakak's chest. So sorry that mommy has to force feed you the medicine. Sorry..baby..so sorry to cause so much trauma in you in taking your medicine.

You are such an understanding baby. Normally when you see mommy, you will make noise and wanted mommy to carry you. But this time when mommy is sick, you just looked at mommy with a non-smiling face but never fuss nor demand mommy to carry you. Baby, you know mommy is sick? Mommy knows you are not happy this few days as I can't hear much of your laughter nor seeing you smile so much. Mommy can't wait to carry, hug and kiss you again, my baby girl...

Mommy really wish everyone recover soon..then we can have our fun time again together. Please..please pray that Isabel and everyone of us will recover soon...Mommy just feel so heartache seeing you sick...